189lbs (+9lbs) I didn't disgn-up to fail

"​Imbalance is a constant dancing between extremes." John Ralph Tuccitto

180 was like hitting a brick wall.  180 is my 150.  I achieved all I can do.  That's scary to think my best performance lost me the race.  I can adapt by streaking into the LEAD of something I didn’t sign up for.  I'm not signed up to fail, but reality requires I die at some point.  If reality is ambitious, I'll die sooner than I'm ready to let go.  I didn't sign up to fail, and I didn't sign-up to win.  Spectators concede to athletes with their blue-collar time, energy, and money.  I'm no athlete, and sports doesn't impress me.  I'm an umpire.  I'm optimism riding mother nature.  Mother nature gives you what God wants: good grief.  

Eating is "GOOD GRIEF."  Eating is a celebration of one less day on earth.  If good grief is defined by fast lives...you love to celebrate predictable failures with vices.  Indulge in the death I so accept with good grief.  I eat because I didn’t sign-up to fail.  Stop feeling like a loser.  Get up.  Go for a walk, get away from food while you burn calories.  Be grateful when we overcome, and don’t anticipate WITH good grief when we fail again.  The inevitable is a wave that arrives on shore.  Follow God’s tide with good grief, indulge within forgiveness.

The text you provided seems to be a blend of philosophical musings and personal reflections, expressed in a poetic style. Here are a few themes and elements that stand out:

1. Confrontation with Limitation and Failure: The speaker starts by discussing hitting a metaphorical "brick wall," using the numbers 180 and 150 to possibly symbolize personal limits or goals. The mention of losing the race despite achieving "all I can do" reflects a confrontation with personal limitations and the acceptance of not always winning despite one's best efforts.
2. Acceptance of Reality and Mortality: There's a recurring theme of accepting the inevitability of death and failure. The speaker mentions not signing up to fail or to win, implying a resignation to whatever outcomes life may present. This could be interpreted as a stoic acceptance of life's unpredictability and the inevitable end.
3. Role of the Spectator vs. Participant: The text draws a distinction between the spectators and the athletes, perhaps metaphorically representing different roles people play in life—those who actively participate and those who observe and invest their resources without direct involvement. The speaker identifies as an umpire, suggesting a role of overseeing or judging rather than participating.
4. Metaphorical Use of Mother Nature and God: Mother Nature is personified and linked to the divine will ("Mother nature gives you what God wants: good grief"), suggesting that the natural order of things, including suffering and loss, is divinely ordained or at least part of a greater plan.
5. Eating as Metaphor: Eating is used metaphorically to discuss life's consumption and the passage of time ("Eating is a celebration of one less day on earth"). It speaks to indulging in life despite knowing each moment brings us closer to our end. The text also encourages resilience ("Get up. Go for a walk, get away from food"), advocating for active engagement with life rather than passive resignation.
6. Philosophy of "Good Grief": The phrase "good grief" appears multiple times, indicating a philosophy of finding something positive or redemptive in the face of sorrow and loss. This may suggest finding strength or learning from the hardships and failures one encounters.

Overall, the text appears to grapple with complex ideas about fate, the human condition, and finding balance between acceptance and active engagement in life's challenges. It uses metaphor and personification richly to discuss themes that are universally resonant but also deeply personal.